56/365!
The end of this week marks the end of two months (according to my 13 month year)...ahh! So far, but still a looong way to go. Oye.
This week was a bit difficult at first. I found it really hard to get back into the theme of not having a set idea for every day. Also, I was ridiculously busy most of the time, leaving most of the pictures a bit on the 'meh' side. I hate that, because I feel like my support then gets a bit 'meh', causing me to rethink way too many things and break myself down. Although, it is nice to just kind of live the pictures day by day as well. I just have to remember I have to take 365 pictures - they're not all going to be my best work. This project isn't about impressing people with my "amazing" photography, but more about me proving to myself I can do something for a change.
I think this last picture needs a bit of explanation, simply because I felt it was a bit difficult. These past few days I've been a bit of a recluse in my own head. I've been doing way too much thinking, keeping things to myself a lot, and mainly just being an emotional wreck without letting anyone know. I tend to do that a lot, but I guess it comes down to me feeling consistently lonely lately. I love my friends, but sometimes, I hear too much or I just need someone to listen to me for a change.
A handful of my closest friends here at Ship are graduating in less than a year. I don't even want to think about this. After they're gone, I know I'll still have friends, but it really won't be the same. And then there are people from home, who I miss terribly and I twist things and make myself think they don't give two shits. To put it bluntly, I haven't been the easiest on myself lately...and it feels good to get it out right now. So my apologies to everyone who has had to put up with me recently.
ANYWAY...as for the picture, it means a lot to me, even if it doesn't seem like it. It's simple, but it feels like me. The picture would be one thing if it were just of me, but I put the flower there for good reason. The two pictures need to be together to explain myself. I'll let you figure out your own interpretation though =)
Until next time...
P.S. - For proper viewing pleasure of day 56, listen to Kate Voegele's version of Hallelujah.
“The best thing about dreams is that fleeting moment, when you are between asleep and awake, when you don't know the difference between reality and fantasy, when for just that one moment you feel with your entire soul that the dream is reality, and it really happened.”
“When life sucks and hands you lemons, I say beat the crap out of it and demand some Florida oranges as well.”
"Music is a total constant. That's why we have such a strong visceral connection to it, you know? Because a song can take you back instantly to a moment, or a place, or even a person. No matter what else has changed in your or the world, that one song says the same, just like that moment."
"Well maybe there's a God above, but all I've ever learned from love was how to shoot somebody who outdrew you. It's not a cry that you hear at night, it's not somebody who's seen the light, it's a cold and it's a broken hallelujah."
"Watch out for intellect, because it knows so much it knows nothing and leaves you hanging upside down, mouthing knowledge as your heart falls out of your mouth."
"I can feel it. The turning of the Earth. The ground beneath our feet is spinning at a thousand miles an hour and the entire planet is hurdling around the sun at sixty-seven thousand miles an hour, and I can feel it. We're falling through space, you and me. Clinging to the skin of this tiny little world, and if we let go...that's who I am."
“I was something that lay under the sun and felt it, like the pumpkins, and I did not want to be anything more. I was entirely happy. Perhaps we feel like that when we die and become a part of something entire, whether it is sun and air, or goodness and knowledge.”
"I've been a bad, bad girl. I've been careless with a delicate man. And it's a sad, sad world when a girl will break a boy just because she can."
“Humility is like underwear, essential, but indecent if it shows.”
“It is when pirates count their booty that they become mere thieves.”
“Oh Lord, give me chastity, but do not give it yet.”
"I have no reason, I have no rhyme. I cannot deny there's a darkness that's inside - I am guilty by design."
"Kids these days. They just don't get scared like they used to."
“Pride makes us artificial and humility makes us real.”
"For her heart goes out to any who would plead. But there are those who see it as a weakness and on her they’d lean. Taking advantage by using her kindness for their greed. And though she sees it not so much as a warning does she heed. For this is a woman who would forgive the devil for his deeds..."
“Envy is a symptom of lack of appreciation of our own uniqueness and self worth. Each of us has something to give that no one else has.”
"The independent girl is a person before whose wrath only the most rash dare stand, and, they, it must be confessed, with much fear and trembling."
“Though lust do masque in ne'er so strange disguise, she's oft found witty, but is never wise.”
"Each time I see the Upside-Down Man standing in the water, I look at him and start to laugh, although I shouldn't oughtter. For maybe in another world, another time, another town, maybe HE is right side up and I am upside down."
"In these deep city lights, girl could get lost tonight. I'm finding every reason to be gone, there's nothing here to hold on to. Could I hold on to you?"
“All the Woulda-Coulda-Shouldas layin' in the sun, talkin' 'bout the things they Woulda-Coulda-Shoulda done. But all those Woulda-Coulda-Shouldas all ran away and hid from one little Did.”
